Which was.. horrible! I got the same feeling I got while watching Avatar (which they're re-releasing btw wit 8 mins of new footage), or most hollywood films these days. I felt like I had seen the movie several times before, I felt like I was having dejavu, but really, it's because it's so formulaic... Meet high strung guy. High strung guy has a plan. High strung guy meets awkward loser. High strung guy and awkward loser have some issues, awkward loser destroys guy's life, guy realizes what's really important in life, blah blah blah. (I won't spoil the formula for you though you probably know what's coming if you have half a brain).
Then after a falafel in the park, I went to work at Delicatessen. Work has been going by a lot faster, now that I'm more used to it. The first few times anywhere suck until your body and mind start getting used to it, I think.
I realized that for the past few years, of past half of my life, I lost the ability to entertain myself. Living in a city, the city takes care of all the entertaining. If you feel bored, you just go out, there's always new places opening and so much to do. As a child growing up in smaller towns and being an only child, I learned to entertain myself and be creative. My mom would come home every day to a living room filled with pillows and sheets and boxes.. I built so many forts and box houses/spaceships, cooked "surprise" cakes for robbers (with chocolate powder and a whole box of cold medicine I found in the medicine cabinet.. a cake that would poison any potential robbers we had), art projects, science projects (I had this huge encyclopedia of science projects that I'd do every Sunday afternoon when my parents would take a nap and I was left alone), divination using fruits and flowers in my back yard, collecting bugs, dissecting bugs, making jewelry, molding clay, opening makeshift stores, trying to sell my mom stuff we already owned in the house.
Then the computer happened. then the city happened. Then I lost the ability to be creative with myself and find deep fulfillment through that. I think that's why the majority of people in NYC especially are unhappy. We've all lost this natural ability to entertain ourselves- what we do for ourselves is not enough, now that we've been exposed to the frenetic entertainment of the internet and of the city. We're dependent. Without it, we're lost.
I think there's a term for this, the technology era, it influences love too, because we're always thinking, just like how our ipods and iphones and computers are always updating, that with love, there will be a better version around the corner. That's why we never settle now. I guess this also ties in with Warholism- this need for 5 mins of fame that's inherent in our culture now.
I think there's a term for this, the technology era, it influences love too, because we're always thinking, just like how our ipods and iphones and computers are always updating, that with love, there will be a better version around the corner. That's why we never settle now. I guess this also ties in with Warholism- this need for 5 mins of fame that's inherent in our culture now.
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