From the beginning, Alessia and I were going to go abroad to Paris together. I wasn't sure, but Alessia was. She noticed my hesitation and used to say that it didn't matter if I didn't go, because she was set on going regardless of my decision.
Things changed and she ended up enrolling in Buenos Aires, and I, in Paris (unexpectedly, since I completely half assed the application partially hoping I wouldn't get into the program, making my decision easier). Still I was unsure, but she was set. We used to have conversations over dinner about my reluctance, she used to comfort me and say that I could pull out if I wanted, at any time without losing anything but the deposit of $300.
Her going away party was this Friday.
Today I got a call at work, and a message: "Maria, I'm not going abroad". It came as a shock.
Now I will be the only one in my group of friends traveling abroad my senior year. And the fact that I wasn't sure about it in the beginning, and now I'm set on it- how things change unexpectedly, how I could not have pictured this would be the end result when I loosely made these plans at the beginning of the year, is utterly unbelievable.
Paris... my mind wasn't so sure about you to begin with, but I guess my heart was set on you.
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