How do you reconcile two opposing paradigms?
I'm at once a realist, and a romantic.
On Halloween night a psychic took a look at my palm and told me I have two life lines. To her, it meant that I would live my life one way and change drastically, then continue to live my life in another way. She disagreed with my therapist, who said that people can't change, because I would prove her wrong.
To google, the two life lines also indicates a blessed life, a resilient life, and someone who lives two different lives at once.
The soft side. The strong side. The dark side. The loving side. The antisocial side. The buoyant side. The champion. The loser. The doubter. The believer. They're all me. So who am I really?
Emotional contagion is when you don't know if an emotion belongs to someone with a stronger personality, or to the crowd, or to you. I guess you could say I get emotionally sick often from others. Sometimes I am an emotional hypochondriac and believe myself to have contracted something even when I haven't.
In 2013 the biggest lesson I've learned is that it's not about achievements but the people you keep close to you that carry you through the critical times. Real love and support are hard to come by and difficult to maintain. Seeing my mom get sick I realized that sure money is important but what comes first is caring, because that heals psychological wounds that can't be healed by doctors.
When I reach out in times of need I get a very real response from those that are close to me. I know I haven't lived the past few months in vain. I used to be very rejecting of people who wanted to be close to me because I wanted to believe that I was invincible and didn't need anyone. The truth is we all need someone.
Why do we fall for some and not for others?
