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This morning I accidentally slept through my alarm so I was about 10 minutes late to class. Surprisingly I didn't feel as tired as I usually do. Then I finished my homework in the library, and saw that Connie had texted me and mentioned that we had a field trip, which I totally forgot about because we usually have field trips on wednesday for Text and Image. I was cutting it pretty close when I left school, especially since the commute takes 40 minutes since the meeting point was close to my house. So I ran back home, dropped off my computer, then took the 12 over to Abbesses. I made it at 12:32 and my teacher said in a condescending tone: "Oh you made it almost at the right time, good job". I was a bit confused why she was like that.

After 2 hours of standing in the cold and walking around Montmartre, the class ended. I was 40 minutes out of the way of school so I told Priya to please tell our Prof (whose class I had 15 minutes after Text and Image ended) that I was going to be late. I told our Text and Image professor that I didn't receive the assignment sheet in my mailbox, as I had checked it that morning specifically looking for it. She said dismissively "I put it in everyone's mailbox. I am sure of it. I don't know why you don't have it" as if I was lying about not having it. Connie even noticed and asked me how I was doing in the class because it would seem like I wasn't doing so well, and she mentioned that before I got there, they had told her that I was on my way and she said "Oh Maria, she's always late."

Which took me by surprise because I have been late to her class 1 time, and it was 5 minutes late, and that day 3 people were late and I only walked in 30 seconds after the girl in front of me yet the teacher gave me a DEATH GLARE that day and I asked the other girls and they said she didn't say anything or glare at them.

Meanwhile one of the guys is always late always late, and today he was much later than I was and she didn't say a single thing to him. I don't know why she's singled me out.

Anyway, that ruined my day because I kept thinking about it and it made me upset, I didn't understand why she was like that. I was 40 minutes late to my next class which was a double class and I hadn't eaten all day because I had been running around all day since 8am. We listened to a cool song. Then after class Priya and I wanted to get dinner so we walked around and every single restaurant was closed. So finally we found sushi after walking about half an hour in the freezing cold aimlessly. I felt really anxious. Then when I took the train home it stopped a few times, and I felt like I was on the cusp of having an anxiety attack. Then on my way home this old man tried to hug me and kiss me randomly which scared the crap out of me. I miss New York today.