1. I was in a hurry and heading over to the global programs office right after picking up my passport photos so I could drop those off before the deadline- I found out while handing in my photos that they were of an angry fat man.
2. they made me wait half an hour, even though they told me my photos would be ready at 12pm and it was 6:30 when I arrived to pick them up. During that time span of half an hour, the lady told me:
a) they were not yet printed
b) she had no record of them ever existing
c) she lost them
Finally she found them, and said to take them upstairs. I was so angry, so I walked out without paying for them.
--I want to avoid going there at all costs. Plus it takes too long for them to print passport photos. I was thinking right after I left the office today that I needed to find a place that prints passport photos immediately on site.. I traced back a memory from freshman year during which I randomly found a store that printed photos for me for a new fake ID after I had gotten my Oregon one taken away. I couldn't remember the exact location of the store though.
My walks home, I usually zone out to the sounds of the city and to the music on my ipod. I get lost in my head, meandering in rumination, problem solving, plans for the future. Walking walking walking.. suddenly I snapped back into reality and realized I was on a completely wrong street! I didn't know why I took that turn when I did! At the exact moment I noticed my mis-location, I looked around to scan where I was, and I was standing right in front of...
...the store in my memory! the one that prints passport photos asap!
moments like this, i realize that even though my conscious mind is that of a 21 year old, with limited experience to draw upon, there is another compartment of my brain, possibly the subconscious, that knows what's going on even, and especially, when my conscious mind tunes out.
In psychology, I learned that experiments in which a person is presented a complex puzzle to complete, those who have no distractions perform worse than those that are distracted by something else. Almost like the answer arises naturally when the subject isn't trying to solve it.
Also, books about the subconscious have advised that when there's a difficult problem, it's better to leave it alone and the answer will miraculously appear to you at random. For instance, sometimes people wake up with a solution, or sometimes even business or artistic ideas that are fully formed. David Lynch's Blue Velvet was birthed that way, he wanted an idea for a film, and one morning he woke up with the vision of a severed ear in grass. Einstein discovered the theory of relativity because he had a dream of himself traveling besides a beam of light. The books caution that when something comes to you, don't ignore it! You'd be wasting something from a creative resource much bigger than what you have access to consciously. Some books that deal with this: 'Catching the Big Fish' by David Lynch, and 'The Power of Your Subconscious Mind'. This concept is also touched on in New Age philosophies such as the law of attraction, though they sometimes make it seem a bit cheesy.
Lynch suggests meditation for easier access to the lucid parts of the brain. I tried meditation for a little while after my spring semester ended, but to stop thinking, I had to think "breathe breathe breathe" which is a thought anyway. I got frustrated and gave up.
I wonder what else my subconscious has brewing. I think it's all a matter of patience and faith that it's all being taken care of and will appear at the right time, even though my 21 yr old consciousness is impatient and all about quick fixes and instant gratification. I guess a big part of maturity is pulling back and accepting non-action as action- waiting, and knowing everything will be alright in time, and not rushing for a solution, and not getting frustrated heated or anxious.
Anyway this loser I mean, slick dude (he saw and got offended) is distracting me with his cat:
I should figure out what I'm going to do about dinner. I've traded my nicotine addiction for diet coke and cranberry chews & that makes me kind of spazzy.
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