Priya told me that love in a biological sense is identical to a drug. Your tolerance builds up and that's why feelings feel less intense, consuming, and more controlled over the course of your life. It's like doing drugs for a long time so much that it affects you less, and you're much more able to figure out the dose you need to feel the way you want to feel. I always associated love with feeling out of control, that's why I fight it, but I have noticed it's gotten easier to control as I've gotten older.
I don't know if that's a good thing or not, probably more functioning, and definitely less intimidating, but is it better to feel, or not to feel? that's the debate i constantly have in my head. intense feelings or muted feelings?
this morning i went to Connie's apartment and met her boyfriend Julian, and we went out to brunch. Then I went home and slept, and now I'm deciding if I should go out tonight. I kind of feel like just staying in and ordering food and watching a movie.
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