Spring Fever (2009)

Spring Fever (2009) Luo Ye: "Flowers know which season they have to bloom"

Though some reviews (yes, I always read reviews first before starting a movie) stated the movie was confusing to follow, I found the pace nice, and the DIY shaky camera worked for me. Love isn't perfect, it's messy, real, and this portrayed it in the perfect light, literally, as the lighting was one of the biggest complaints of several reviewers who stated that it was too dark in most shots. The destruction of love, the endless patterns we all get ourselves into- these themes struck me. Some people are constantly consumed in the same relationship patterns that all end in the same way, until we become aware of that fact and do something to change it. And then we 'bloom' so to speak.

I'd been thinking about this lately, as I brushed through my old twitter account that I never updated and realized it was a repetitive cycle of relationships that I would only have the courage to start before a temporal end- that is, the last few years I've travelled so much, and only before leaving would I feel safe enough in my heart, enough to open it up, knowing that the temporal end wouldn't give me a chance to really get hurt. I had seen my cycles, and realized this is what I do. Little circles, big circles, but always circles. I'm mature enough now to accept partial responsibility for the way my relationships in the past went and ended, and now with that awareness, and with my new maturity, I'm changing my circles and creating new, healthier patterns.

This movie is about a guy, well, we don't really know who the central character is until the very end of the film, but it's about a gay relationship. We then find out that there's someone hired to watch over this gay couple, and then we find out it's the wife of one of the men who hired a private detective. Soon, drama ensues, but the detective involves himself as well in a gay relationship with one of the gay men but he has a girlfriend himself.

This movie is similar to the movie I watched earlier today because it's about exploring ones sexuality, and not having it be so definable. It ended on a note of ambiguity as well, which I love, because neatness scares me. Neat anything scares me. That's why my room and my mind are such messes. Life is a mess.

My mom just opened up a bottle of wine for me, her, and my dad. My little brothers have their 2 friends over, and they just said "mom do you wanna watch sex and the city with us". I ditched out, thinking that would be a very uncomfortable situation. But I do like sex and the city...