Homecoming

Every time I'm home I feel such an internal struggle.

I realize more and more that my parents and I always failed to connect.

That's why for most of my life I only wanted to be around those I couldn't connect to, because it felt familiar.

The ones I did connect to I couldn't handle. I didn't understand the feeling of truly relating to someone.

My values are so different from those of my parents and my culture. Yet they're also not entirely in sync with Western values because I am Chinese. I guess I'm just me.

Only recently, this year, have I become comfortable enough with myself to accept true connections.

Now I'm learning the subtle differences between all connections
Emotional
Psychic
Intellectual
Physical

I often wonder why most movies have a narrator that feels she doesn't fit in. The ones that are about the super popular girl aren't as relatable.

The isolation I felt all my life can be channeled into something great.
Even if my subject matter isn't relatable
My struggles and my message are universal.